The Suns Bed
I Went to bed early yesterday but didn’t fall asleep for hours. When I finally did fall asleep I had a bad dream but then my father appeared in my dream guiding me away from the situation and after that I woke up. My heart was beating so fast it seemed as though it was about to jump out of my chest. I looked out the window saw the sun was starting to raise, got dressed quickly and headed to the beach.
As I as walking towards the beach I began to feel better and I thought about my dream and him whom the dream was all about. I thought to myself, I don’t need him to be happy. I repeated that thought walking towards the beach and yet I have no idea why. I already know I don’t need him to he happy.
When I got to the beach no one was there and that shocked me. The public beaches and the private beaches were empty but I didn’t go there for the people. I went there to watch the sun raise from it’s bed. I leaned against the rocks toward downtown chicago for a few mins before moving to look out towards Lake Michigan.
I smelled a familiar scent and walked over to smell the tree. The birds were all busy bathing, eating and soaring in the pink and blue sky. I looked around seeing again that I was all alone and I held my head back and stretched out my arms. I thanked my creator for this beauty and this peace. For a few moments nothing else in the world mattered.
I sat towards the lake and saw the tip of the sun raising up from it’s watery blue bed and I started to cry. It was so beautiful and all this time I had been neglecting it’s beauty too busy with exhausting nonsense. I thought, God I don’t need much to be happy. I drifted off into a day dream of me having breakfast on the beach with the sun raising. A nice big blanket, pinic basket, and I must have tea. I pictured myself sitting alone with him watching in the distance admiring my peace and my joy.
Then I pulled myself out of my daydream to watch the squirrel behind me having breakfast. I looked around once again and noticed I was no longer alone. There was a man in the distance wearing a blue shirt and that was about all I could see.
I held my head back looking towards the sky once more. I watched the seagulls soar freely and I remembered how as a child i wanted to be a bird so I could fly away and be free. I started to cry again thinking about how beautiful it is to see the birds being so free. I sat a little longer until the heat from the sun was taking the morning chill out the air. I closed my eyes and felt the sun on my face and it felt so good that I leaned back and put up my leg. LOL
I was getting so comfortable I had to look around me once again and noticed another man sitting on a bench drinking something from a can in a plastic bag. hmmm, most likely beer !! He was tall, thin, salt and pepper beard too far for me to see features but I’d guess he was 60ish. Then I knew it was time for me to go although I really didn’t want to.
Walking back I decided not to go past the man sitting on the bench although that was the way I came. I just didn’t feel like saying hello or avoiding eye contact. So I went through the grass. The walk home was quiet. My block was quiet and I came inside and made myself breakfast.
I cracked the window above the dining room table then I made sausage & pancakes. I took two of the apples I was gonna make him an apple pie with and put them in a pot with some butter, cinnamon, sugar and a lil water. I poured the caramelized apples on top of my pancakes and poured myself a glass of tea. I sat at my table eating, thinking, enjoying every bite. I chuckled and smiled thinking damn these are some good ass pancakes. I thought it would be nice to start my day like this every day for the rest of my life.





